POEM

i wanna share a mandarin poem v u all
which i created myself
unfortunately i found tat my pc dun hv
chinese star or any chinese typin version
so it makes me quite dissapointed
da poem is abt humsick
it was tat nite tat i cant hardly fall into sleep
bcoz i miss my hum n evythg
then my mum called me occasionally
tat voice was so familiar
so warm tat i started 2 cry
my tears drop n drop
most of da time
non-stop
bt i didn't let she noes
lastly i had my thought tat nite
then i wrote it down in a poem form
da other day
tat will b an eternal memory 4 me
share v u all next time when i gt my chinese typin version
thanx you,fren^^

MIRI

wow,so long din update my blog le
as u noe,am bz 4 my studies' settlement
laz friday(10/7)i departed 2 miri via air asia
i arrived at nite n my dad's fren,mr.tan fetch us 2 his hum
i was so curious abt miri tat time
coz i hv nt been here b4 n it's a long term plc
4 me 2 study fr tat moment
unfortunately,da nite was so blec n i hardly could c anythg
i juz saw bushes around n thr were vy few car along
then me n my parents stayed in a room mr.tan's own
da room was quite small bt v appreciated
he brought us 2 c institut perguruan sarawak,miri
n am reali dissapointed 2 c da condition here
i hv expected alot in here,luxurious hostel n beautiful compound
am sad 2 c a hostel corridor tat was so dimn
a room tat was so small yet a little bit old furnished
i cried at my parents n i 1 them 2 brg me hum,
''buy me air ticket,i wanna go bec!"i shouted n cried
da next day is my registration day n my dad still 1 me 2 go
i packed my belongings reluctantly n v departed
at thr,i thk n thk,n many times i almoz cried
i did not noe hw 2 make my decision
bt miraculously,a few parents n lecturers thr
keep tellin me tat b a teacher is a gud decision indeed
n i started 2 soften,after da 2nd view at my institut,
i began 2 accept it slowly..n i registered finally
i joined da taklimat n activities n my parents reali show
their deep luv towards me,they came visit me twice per day
they bought me lots lots of food n neccesaries
they carried it 2 my hostel on 4th floor
i cried 2 times a day since da day i visited my institut
bt my dad wants me 2 b a teacher alot
he let me decide my future anyway
c-ing his hardwork did 4 me n i can accept da condition finally
i decide 2 stay
tat day b4 my parents wanna went bec
they came 2 find me, i hugged them n shook hand v them
my dad went 2 da beach whr my activity carried out n
he kissed me 4 da 1st time since i was so big
he turned away quickly n i could c da redness on his nose
he wanna cried i noe,bt nt infront of me.
i dare nt 2 turn bec when he leave n i blif he,too.
now,i am alone here
da weather is hot,da thgs is expensive
n da sunrise n sunset here is faster then west m'sia 4 1 hr
i gotta sleep early fr nw coz 6am nid 2 wake up le
our lecture start at 7.15 am
here r da thgs i wanna share v u all,
although it is nt vy complete
i try nextime 2 add on if can
end here,bye^^

我离开的前两天

今天我很难过因为我留在大山脚的日子只剩下两天，
我不可以听到悲哀的音乐，我会哭。
我不可以让自己有机会想到我得离开的事实，我会哭。
我觉得给人家看到我哭是件多么丢脸的事，虽然我已哭了不少次。
我一直以为被抛弃的人最难过。
原来，我错了，是离开的人最为心酸。
我一直以为自己很坚强，原来我什么都不是。
我一直以为我能永远把家当作避风港，原来我乘坐的是一只船。
既然每个人都得面对离别的滋味，为什么你不能坚强？
既然你知道那是迟早的事，为什么你从来没有做好心理准备？
我想了想，回答：我能坚强，只是在以后。
我一直都有做心理准备，只是没有做好 应付不了心理准备的准备。

days after days

days after days..
da days i left in tis plc juz hv 5 more days
bt am still cant reali imagine my life at thr
n am nt so sure tat if am nt goin 2 cry anymore
am too curious tat if my parent reali dun feel
a single reluctance 2 me..
my grandma,she said,whisper 2 my sister,
tat she din feel gud 4 my leavin,her heart
did not feel well..when i heard tis,i felt 1 2 cry..
it has been 2 days,v tried 2 eat 2geder in a whole family
bt evytime v juz lack of her,my grandma..
bcoz i woke up late,v departed late..
she cant stand her hungry~
wait until i reali bec tat time is after 5 n 1/2 year..
i wish,i wish i can have a longer time 2 accompany
my grandma.i appreciate,i appreciate her sacrifices
here,i want 2 speak out loud :"THANKS,GRANDMA!"